the preponderance of liberation over slavery

choices. sometimes i just want somebody to order me around instead of giving me freewill and options! but this is the reward of liberated man, bought with the ultimate sacrifice on the cross. it is up to us to make the right ones with the guidance of the omnipresent Spirit within us.

i am making the choice to cut out all the junk tv that sucks the soul out of me and turns me into a mindless minion via its subliminal pagan messages. like Glee and all the other american sitcoms. we'll see how that works out.

red and gold

tis my 3rd year without those exciting little red packets. i miss the humid days spent fanning oneself and gorging on love letters, peanut butter cookies, honeycomb biscuits then counting the loot afterwards. i miss the money and the food.

talking about a revolution

where is the angry undercurrents, dissenting voices? the fire, the passion! we need some drama here. people walk around like zombies, deadened looks in their eyes, only living for the next pint in the pub. they need life, they need God. they need something to boil their blood and rouse the fire within their lifeless souls! i feel like i'm living in Tim Burton's corpse bride land. where the living are dead, and the dead living. this is a culture in decay, decay because of complacency, loose morals and political correctness. manchester, it looks vibrant but it is really a ghost town.

this rambling post is attributed to the stress of research projects and reading too much elizabeth gaskell novels.

Focus

its all a trick. an illusion. there is a very good magician out there. the illusion that the seemingly pressing issues of today are indeed pressing. see, a good magician knows to distract our attention from the key to the trick. he flutters his hands, there's fire and smoke but its all a ploy to distract the audience's attention. Our attention is constantly distracted by things that are tangible, the TV, deadlines, wealth, property, the social ladder etc.

When really, all that matters is faith in God. Faith that He has planned out our paths. Its funny when you really start trusting God and really taking that cross and dying to yourself, things fall into place.

its when we fall and experience these pesky dips in faith that our attention is diverted. Don't be fooled.

like the song says, Yesus engkau juru selamatku

First day back in uni and already the work is piling on. Went for lunch with friends for a catch-up and they were discussing the tough upcoming semester, placements, work applications and the whole rat race. And suddenly it struck. My God, my Yahweh is so much bigger than all problems. Yeah, i've heard that before, not exactly an epiphany I had, but its was so real that I had to sit back and marvel. Yes, God is my victory dan juru selamatku! Why should I strive and worry like the others when I have a God so strong and faithful?

Life is uncertain but God is faithful. He guides me in paths of righteousness and all my days are in His hands. Enough said.

good things, good people

my last day in the land of eternal sunshine and bliss. and it is so blue, sunny and breezy today.

discombobulated

"Order and method" is what Hercule Poirot always says. That was the foundation of his success. Fictional he may be, but order and method is how Christie wrote her books. Easier said than done though. It is relatively easier for Poirot to make order and method out of facts presented in a fictional world, much more difficult for me living in this chaotic mess where I rely on others to be punctual and responsible.

I hate disorganisation. Disorganisation mind, not tidiness. 2 entirely different issues. Disorganisation is pure torture to the soul. Leave it all up to me and I'd nuke every disorganised person in the world. After all, these creatures are the main reasons for stress in the workplace. But just one of those things you learn to deal with in the working place, no? Perhaps i could devise a way to indirectly punish disorganised people, like laxatives in coffee etc. The simple ones work best.

just a rant. i haven't updated for awhile, and i deserve to start off with a whiny post.